Saturday, May 30, 2009

Done In

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you have nothing left to give? I've been having one of those weeks.

We have had company in town since last Thursday and I am so worn down I don't even know if I will be able to get a jump start to get going again!!

My "diet" and exercise program have gone completely out the window this week and it is KILLING me!!! I feel horrible. We have been eating crap all week and I can tell that I am just not feeling like myself because of it. I guess the good part of that statement is that it means my body was liking eating better and I have done enough to know now when I am eating like crap.

I managed to get up a couple times at the beginning of the week, but after a few late nights and some interrupted sleep, that got put on hold, too. Ugh!!!

For those who do not know, I am an Introvert. I need space. I need solace. I CRAVE time alone. That has not happened AT ALL this week and I am suffering because of it. I even went so far today as to lock the bathroom door for 3 minutes so my son couldn't come in trying to talk to me. I am DESPERATE for a break and the chance for things to get back to "normal."

The hard thing is that I know our guest has needed the break and the chance to come and spend time with us away from his "normal" right now. He has had some rough breaks this year and we extended the invitation for him to come earlier than his proposed trip in the Fall. I keep having to remind myself that God is using this break to minister to him and that we are part of that. I keep having to tell myself to out my needs aside to be useful and helpful for a short time. But, to be totally honest, it's been really hard. And, I am ready to have my house back.

For those who are following my journey, I gained .8 pounds this week, which I find to be an accomplishment given the crap we have eaten this week. Our guest will be leaving on Monday night, so this week I WILL get back to it!!

If you feel so inclined, I'd love some prayers for strength to get through this final stretch and to not "kill" anyone in this house in the process!! lol

Otherwise, I will be in touch soon with better results!!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Gotta Keep Going

This past week was a bit of a challenge for me. I’m extremely frustrated that this is such a difficult challenge for me (weight). I wish I could just snap my fingers and be the size/weight/shape that I need to be and have it be done. Unfortunately, it is not that simple (darnit!!). I am one of the "lucky" millions in this country who struggle with food and weight.

So, back to this past week. I am still managing to get up early in the morning to go workout, but it hasn’t been easy. The good thing is that I have been able to go every day, and I have to say that has been nice. It’s also nice not to have to worry about my workout being cut short for a diaper change!! Lol

My body is feeling stronger and I feel like my clothes are starting to be a bit loose, which is really nice. My husband also told me earlier this week that he thought I was looking smaller, which is so encouraging!!

The negative for this week, was that I was not very consistent in the food department. So, I think that I am going to join an online food diary to get more accountability in that area. I need to have more discipline in watching everything that I eat. Not for an eternity, but for a time I need to get much more conscious of what I am eating because I could do with a lot less crap and a lot more healthy alternatives.

I did not lose weight this week, I merely maintained. But considering all that has been going on this week, I do not feel too badly about this.

We will still have company all week, so hopefully it will not be too difficult to stick with the food intake this week!!

Check in soon…

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Week 2 Overview

Hey guys,
So, this is going to be a pretty short update, because we're already in to the 3rd week.

Week 2 went pretty well (until the weekend!!). We were busy doing lots of things and I did not have time to be as watchful of what I was eating.

I am still getting up during the week at 5:15 to go work out before Fraser leaves for work. It was really hard last week because I am so tired. But, I am learning that it makes me feel so much better to get up and get some good exercise in to start my day.

I did weigh in on Saturday and lost another pound!! Praise the Lord!

I hope to continue the downward trend and resist the overwhelming urge I have at times to just quit this whole thing. But, I know I can't do that so I just keeping plugging away one day at a time.

Thanks for your continued support/encouragement/accountability. You are helping me to push through this slump and I really appreciate it.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Ups and Downs

So, I have made it through my first week and let me tell you it was not easy!! I’m not even sure where to begin…so I will just start with walking through the week, I guess.

Monday I started out strong. I got up at 5:15 to go workout at the gym, which turned out to be a good thing because Nathan ended up not feeling well this week and I would have previously used that as an excuse to not go and workout. Not so, this time around! I also managed to go for a walk to the park with Nathan in the afternoon AND in the evening. I also was good about tracking my food and watching what I was eating. Monday was a good day.

Tuesday also started out with an early morning workout. Can’t really remember too much else from it (truthfully), but I remember it was a good day, overall.

Wednesday started out good, but the evening was where things started to go a bit downhill. Fraser was gone for the evening and I was soooo tired from all the early mornings. I got a pizza. But, I ate much less than I normally would have.

After the evening pizza, my eating kind of went downhill. We went to see a movie on Thursday and had some food afterwards.

So, all in all it was a week full of ups and downs. I started using my new juicer (happy b-day me!), which has been lots of fun…and Nathan loves the juice, too! Woo hoo!!!

I did brave a weigh-in on Saturday morning and I lost 3 pounds, which was a fantastic surprise. God is gracious, despite my numerous shortcomings.

So, this next week, I will continue to workout regularly. But, I need to step it up in the food department.

Gotta keep it up!!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

My Line in the Sand

OK folks, so here it is… I have been talking about needing/wanting to lose weight for, well, forever. And, I am now officially sick and tired of putting it off and coming up with every excuse under the sun as to why I cannot get this excess weight off. So, I am officially drawing my line in the sand. Done. Stepping over it…and I will NOT look back.

I have figured out that one of my biggest struggles in this area is that I do not have enough accountability to keep me on-board with what I need to do. So, here is where I would like to ask for your help. I need to know that there are people out there who love me that will be able to keep up/read up on my progress.

I want to start sending out a weekly “report card” that will track my progress. I need to have the accountability to know at least one person will read it and know what I have been doing that week to lose weight.

This will be a work in progress as I decide how/what I will write in these reports, so it might be a little “kinky” (lol) for a few weeks. For now, my plan is to track what I eat. I don’t know how yet (I’m looking into a couple suggestions I’ve gotten from friends), but I plan to have some kind of food diary to keep track of my food intake. I probably will not share everything that I eat every week in my reports as I think it will be WAY too much information that most people won’t care to read weekly. I think I will probably just write a bit as to how I felt about what I ate during the week. If that does not prove to be enough accountability to keep me on the straight and narrow, then I will write in more detail about my food intake.

Another part of what I want to write in my “progress reports” is about my exercise regimen. I know that I need to greatly increase my exercise regimen and I will write about what I have been doing for exercise during the week.

In short, I need to know that I can have some built-in accountability and support when I write these weekly progress reports. I would welcome feedback, so long as it is done/written with love. I don’t want any haters right now, please. I do enough hatin’ on myself in this area of my life, so I do not need to have that right now as I am trying to get into better habits and lifestyle changes.

I will post these reports on my blog and will also post a link to my blog on facebook (for those who do not have a blog). I appreciate your time and support and look forward to creating an accountability group to help support me as I work on becoming more healthy!!

God Bless!!

Liz <><


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